THE WALK HOME FROM THE BAR

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This shall be vegas

That feeling you get

When someone tells you you changed their life forever, for the better.

Well shoot that makes a girl feel really good. 

I’m happy to be a part of your life and promise continue to be. 

Good girl time, laughter and tears.

Also, Taxi’s has the best Long Island Iced Teas in San Marcos.

Also also, White Russians are delicious

Also also also, they’re even more delicious with Godiva Liquor 

Good night my loves

WHEN SOMETHING SEEMS LIKE A GOOD IDEA AT THE TIME

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WHEN SOMEONE MAKES MIMOSAS

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MY BEST FRIEND AND I ARE LIKE:

Thoughts from tonight

Why hello tumblr, long time no see

Sorry for being on such a hiatus. Life got crazy busy. Looking back on you now though I realize I should never get too busy to the point where I can’t jot my thoughts down. I’ve been slowly driving myself crazy for the past couple of months with a variety of different things. It took talking with Chris tonight randomly for it all to come out. Seriously we were just laughing and saying nonsense then all of the sudden he asked me “what’s wrong”

I sat there for awhile, probably a good minute, just thinking. What was wrong? I knew something was, but I couldn’t put it into words. Only a feeling came to mind. 

Uncertainty

My life is full of a lot of changes right now. People have changed, I’m going new places, my time in this area is almost ending, the chapter is closing, I’m on those last two pages trying desperately not to look at the last line to see where the next chapter will begin. 

We talked about the changes in people, and figured out what we hated the most: No one seemed to be able to just hang out anymore. It used to be only a few years ago I could call anyone up say “Hey, wanna go grocery shop?” and an adventure would ensue. Not even an exciting adventure. Just the simpleness of enjoying another persons company. Or I could even call and say “hey, I’m bored. Wanna do something?” Sometimes I wouldn’t even have to call. I could just show up and not feel the pressure of “having to do something” weighing on me. 

Nowadays I feel that no one can just have that simple joy anymore. There has to be a purpose. We’re going to go get dinner. Lets get drunk. Lets do this project. Lets have a goal. The drinking thing is the worse. I’m not saying don’t get drunk or don’t enjoy drinking. What worries me about it is that people do it so much that I worry they’ll start to rely on it for social interaction. That the use it to cover up their insecurities. Its not just one person doing this, its a lot of people. Like seven I can think of off of the top of my head. It just scares me. I see people losing themselves and I want to grab them and shake them and say “WHY ARE YOU LEAVING THIS BEAUTIFUL PERSON IN THE SHADOWS? WHY ARE YOU COVERING YOURSELF UP? WHAT ARE YOU SCARED OF?”

Scared. Insecurities. Vulnerability. I used to wonder why people hated getting older and now I know. The world makes you hard, makes you stiff, makes you freeze up, makes you hide. I don’t want to end up only hanging out with my husband in the future. I want to be able to keep that simple joy of just being with someone who’s company I enjoy and who enjoys me as well. Who rely on each other not for gain, but for simple togetherness. 

But now, everyone is terrified of showing who they really are. Of sharing who they really are. They’re scared its going to be stomped into oblivion or taken advantage of. They’re scared they will be abused. 

I miss when things were new. I miss when we weren’t scared, before we were hardened. I don’t think its impossible to get back to that point. Not saying forget what hardened you. I’m saying don’t let it define you. I’m still of the firm belief that people don’t really change you, you change for people. You change for yourself. No one has the power to make you make a decision. Only you can decide who you will be. 

I am going to be more firm
I am going to be more in your face
I am not going to sugar coat
I am going to be blunt, to the point, maybe even harsh
I am going to be caring
I am going to be loving
I am going to care too much
I am going to worry too much
My soul will never change
I am going to rid myself of the things I do not like
I am not going to let someone else’s negativity influence my own
I have my own view of the world
I will keep my head high
I will be more demanding
I am tired of babying
I am tired of laziness
I am tired of self entitlement
I am tired

I refuse to forget who I am. 

Dear people who question why girls go to the bathroom together

middle-east-beast:

Hermione went alone and got attacked by a troll